Wednesday, November 10, 2010

salam..bile duk jauh2 nie, hati kadang2 rase rindu kat umah..knape rindu?? sbb almost everything yg kita sayang ade kat rumah...mak, abah, adik-adik and sume2 tu la..seyesly skang tgh rindu giler kat mak.lantak le korang nk ckp anak mak ke ape ke, yg penting aku sayang mak aku and aku x malu nk tunjukkan rasa sayang aku kat mak..cewahhh...

Sayang mak!! hahaha..gedik oh.. nk ucap terima kasih bnyk kat mak sebab banyak bende..first, sbb life threatening labour, nk lahirkan anak mak yg sorang ni..dulu lahir x ckup bulan, so Allah je tahu macam mane, sbb membesarkan anak mak ni..alhamdulillah, membesar dgn elok dan ensem keadaannye.(kembang hidung)..sebenanye, klu nk tulis semua yg mak da buat, mmg x boleh.. bnyk sgt...hanya Allah je yg boleh balas..

aku igt lagi time tu aku darjah 5..dapat wakil sekolah, maen bola..x de la hebat sgt da ok la gak..time tu aku x de boot bola la, maen kat kampung, mane ade kasut..kaki ayam je.. sari sblom tournament, cikgu suruh beli kasut..aku pon ckp le kat mak aku...mak aku ckp nk beli besok..mak aku time tu mengajar kat bandar skit..pagi2 la da kuar umah.. so, aku igt mak aku da lupe pasal kasut aku..nk wat cmne, sibuk kn..rilek je la... dkt2 kul 10, mak aku dtg amik aku kat sekolah,ckp nk g beli kasut..heehehe..senyum lebar aku...mak aku sanggup half day keje just nk cari kasut aku.. walaupun bnyk kedai pegi, tp kasut x jumpe gak..x de saiz... nway, mak aku mmg terbaik ah...2 je citenye..pasal tournament tu, erm...x yah cite la...kalah... hahaahaha...

love u mama...really am...

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

droppin out..

hi.. sometimes in life, u stumbled upon a point where u don't know what to do with ur life, ur study and bla bla bla...aku skang kat medical school..blaja susah n d fees is extremely mahal.. shud i or shudn i drop out of medical school?? its not bout d workloads,(still can handle them all).. d fees!! mane nk cekau duit..skang nie rase nk balik umah..seriously..nk balik then cari course yg murah2.. ade x??

please help!!! klu nk derma boleh gak.. hahahaha...

Friday, October 22, 2010

2nd year.. back. da lame x update blog ni.hahaha.. nothing much happened actually, so thers nothing to 2nd year of medical school is up and running.. and my aim for this year is pretty much the same as last year-pass the final without fail! its gonna b hard but, il try my best (hopefuly)..congrats to frens who got scholarships.... and lets pray for our success..amin.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


i wish people would look at their selves first, before they judge others..

Tuesday, June 15, 2010


I spend my day sleeping, i do nothing except on9, i think d physio test did get to me..haish.. I told myself im ok but i certainly not. God, please help me get through all dis.. Pretending you're ok didn't help at all. not in my case..haish..

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Selamat Hari Jadi

Selamat Hari Jadi, Happy Birthday, Sanah Helwah..

kpd sesape yg menyambut hari lahir pada hari ini...hahaha.. Kepada Ariff Haikal, moga-moga dipanjangkan umur, dimurahkan rezeki dan sentiasa berada di dalam rahmat-Nya...

Thursday, June 10, 2010

the sweetest time of the day..

You know when the sweetest time of your day is??

It is when you pray..


Because you are talking to the ONE who loves you the most..


Sunday, June 6, 2010



I'm physically and mentally exhausted,

physio is around the corner,

and I'm not ready...

Saturday, June 5, 2010


50 ways to cope with stress.


Missing someone is your heart’s way of telling you just how much you love them.

jiwang kan?? ok tata...

15 things you never knew or thought about..

  1. At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you
  2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way
  3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because he/she wants to be just like you
  4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone even if he/she doesn't like you
  5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep
  6. You mean the world to someone
  7. If not for you, someone may not be living
  8. You are special and unique
  9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you
  10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it
  11. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
  12. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned you back on the world
  13. Always remember the compliments you received. forget the rude remarks
  14. Always tell someone how you feel about them;you will feel much better when they know
  15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

i'm sorry..

PENCIL: you know, i'm really sorry.

ERASER: For what? you didn't do anything wrong.

PENCIL: I'm sorry, 'cause you get hurt because of me. whenever i make a mistake. you're always there to erase it. but as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller every time.

ERASER: That's true, but I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. even though one of these days, I know I'll be gone and you you have to replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad :) love you..

to realize.............

to realize the value of a sister:
ask someone who doesn't have one

to realize the value of ten years:
ask a newly divorced couple

to realize the value of four years:
ask a graduate

to realize the value of one year:
ask a student who has failed a final exam

to realize the value of nine months:
ask a mother who gave birth to a still born

to realize the value of one month:
ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby

to realize the value of one week:
ask an editor of weekly newspaper

to realize the value of one hour:
ask the lovers who are waiting to meet

to realize the value of one minute:
ask a person who has missed the train, bus or plane

to realize the value of one second:
ask a person who has survived an accident

to realize the value of one millisecond:
ask the person who has won a silver medal in Olympics

to realize the value of a friend:
lose one

to realize the value of a relationship:
be faithful, you are not gonna realize it when you are alone. :P

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

jiwang again..

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait


another song..haha..its nice..ok tata...

Sunday, May 30, 2010

a couple of advises..


woah!! gempak x?? hahah..well,these are a little advises to you:

giving advise is doubt bout dat..but its not gonna work if you are no better than the person u r givin advise to. its like a convict who is doin his time behind bars giving advise to his robber friend who is about to get busted to stop doin all the filthy things you can think of.. its not a good metaphor is it? haha..the point is, its not gonna works.. it NEVER works..

next, dont even think/talk bad about other words, be "husnuzzon". its not gonna hurt you.. trust'll make your life easier and happier.. you know, when u start talking behind others back, its hard to stop..rumours will spread out,friends will bicker with each other, and other bad things will happen..and i tell you, its not gonna be nice..

lastly, do not stop people who is trying to change his/her life for the better either by your actions or words..instead, lead him/her to it.. don't go saying "ko kat sini je baik, nnt balik malaysia jd setan balik." NO!!..u shud never ever say this..its not only gonna hurt his/her feelings but its gonna crush any sort of his/her will to change. there are tons of ways to help people change.. you just hv to find the best ways....

hahaha...dats enuf i think..ok..tata..

p/s : im sorry if there are errors in my writing..m not perfect.. and this post is just a peringatan to myself..haha...

Saturday, May 29, 2010


I've been alone so many nights now
And I've been waiting for the stars to fall

I keep holding out for what I don't know
To be with you
Just to be with you

So here I am, staring at the moon tonight
Wondering how you look in this light
Maybe you're somewhere thinking about me, too
To be with you... there's nothing I wouldn't do

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually
And when we finally meet I'll know it's right
I'll be at the end of my restless road
But this journey, it was worth the fight
To be with you

Just to be holding you for the very first time,
Never letting go
What I wouldn't give to feel that way

Oh, to be with you
And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart,
Come together eventually

And when you're standing here in front of me
That's when I know that God does exist
'Cause he will have answered every single prayer
To be with you

Just to be with you,yeah

sorry for being jiwang...hahaha..its a good song..for now.. ok...tata...

Friday, May 28, 2010


came across this in my me thinking..really..these are the peoples that colour my life...

1.New friends
I did make a lots of friends this year..bdak2 medic uni zagazig.. no need for me to list the names rite??

2.Someone i realized that i can't live without
Hurm..its not just one person..but if i have to name one, aside from my family its got to be HER..

3.Someone i met when i was little.
Fatin marini..good gurl..hahaha..

4.Person with the best smile
hahaha..AJ..miss ur smile man...

5.Someone i always hv fun with.
hurm..i hv fun with everybody...

6.My best friends
Aizi,Taqim,Aj,Haikal,Jimmy,Amin,Syah,Abe Is and the list goes on..

7.Someone who likes good music

8.Someone i used to be really close to

9.Smartest person i know
Fakhruddin Razali...he is a genius..

10.Someone I miss.. question asked...

11.Someone who has nice hair...
hurm...can't think of one...

12.Someone who makes i smile on my worst day
Her..and Azmeer and salman..hahaha..

13.Person with really nice eyes

14.someone who makes me laugh a lot
Abe Is...or syah..or AJ or..Puyen..sometimes,HER

15.Someone who changed my life.
i better keep this to myself...

16.someone i once had a crush on
Inas.....but it was long, i moved on...

17.Funniest friends
Abe Is, syah, haikal, and some others...can't really tell whos the funniest..

18.person who i can talk to about anything
Her..or Azmeer..or AJ..or Salman..

19.the person who knows me better than most of my friends

20.prettiest person i know..
like i even have to tell..wahahaha..

the point is, i really love my friends..all of them.. and i know sometimes i hurt their feelings.. i let them down and im really2 sorry.. Love you guys..i can't really live without u guys..

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

a boy's wisdom....

hi..sekarang nie aku suke bukak blog2 member aku. some r are great and some are just fine. aku then buka blog cousin aku yg umur 10 tahun. yeah, u heard me, he's 10. i can't believe he can write entries which for me are quite excellent for a 10 year old boy. his posts are simple yet full of wisdoms. and i recalled a conversation i had with him 2 years back

aku : irfan nnt nk jadi ape?
irfan: irfan nnt nk jd saintis Islam..

What? i was shocked. saintis islam?? bia betol bdak nie...

aku : nape irfan nk jadi saintis islam?
irfan : sebab irfan nak tolong umat islam. nnt irfan nk cipta barang yg boleh tolong diorang, mudahkan hidup diorang.. nnt umat islam x ditindas lg ngan orang kafir..

Ya Allah, his answer...buat aku terkejut.. how can a boy like him who just started school thinks so far ahead??

what was my cita2 when im at his age? doctor?engineer?architect? and even now i don't even put the words ''muslim' and 'doctor' together in my mind.. haha.. im just simply want to be a doctor, have own clinic and enjoys life as it is.. i never think about the 'muslim' part.. Ya Allah..

nie bdaknye..irfan..

Along doakan irfan berjaya dan dapat jadi ape yg irfan inginkan..hahah..ur dad must be proud of u young man..

Monday, May 24, 2010


she is funny,

she is caring,

she is lovely,

she is nice,

she is soft,

she is everything,

she is MY MOM..

Love mu mom. i always am..

Sunday, May 23, 2010

salam.. tetibe je ak teringat kat abah aku time study.bkn sblom nie x igt, tp dis time agak special.. ak dok teringat je kata2 die kat ak..his advises, walaupun we didn't talk a lot, sometimes his words can be so true and meaningful.hahaha.. klu ak skype pon, skype ngan mak aku.. nie la antara bende yg die ckp or mungkin ckp kt ak...


"jangan risau pasal duit dan bende2 laen kalau nk belajar, abah akan bg sbb abah tahu macam mana rase bila nak sambung belajar tapi x ade kemampuan. sekarang abah nak anak2 abah belajar sampai habis."


"awak tu anak sulung. contoh kepada adik2. macam mane adik2 nk ikut klu abang die malas n x berjaya."


"awak dah besar, awak dah boleh buat keputusan sendiri tapi jgn ingat abah dah x ade tanggungjawab atas kamu dan adik2. abah x mahu nnt Allah tny abah kenapa kamu biar anak2 kamu buat dosa..."


"abah x nk kereta besar, abah x nk rumah, abah x nk duit, abah nk minta anak2 abah berjaya dunia akhirat, dan abah nk anak abah igt pengorbanan abah ngan ma."


hehe..though he rarely shows it on his face, aku tahu bile die sedih, bile die hepi, bile die kecewa.. are one great man really proud of you.. i really am. im hoping dat i can talk to you more and i will hold on to your advises. Love u abah...

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Don't be sad..please..

don't be sad dear...



red sheets..

Red sheets!! buat red sheets ye!! haha..

5 hari sblom exam Anatomy....

Syah: Mili, ko da wat red sheets blom??
Mili : Dah..tinggal bahagian thorax ngan pelvis sikit lg x wat... Asal??
Syah: Owh..x pe x pe..ko wat dlu..nnt ak pnjam..hahaha..
Mili : ok...ok..

3 hari sblom exam.....

Mili : Syah, ak rase bnyk soalan kluar dari red sheets la...ak mmg bace bende ni je..
Syah: bgus2...skali x kluar mmg naye...
Is : Dr. Hassan da ckp da kbnyakan soalan kuar dari red sheets...alah..bace je la smua...
Mili : yg kat fb 2 cmne lak?? same cam past year an?? ak study yg 2 je la...

2 hari lg...

Syah : oii...da abis bace red sheets?? ak mlm nie nk abiskn pelvis dlm red sheets...besok thorax
ngan upper limb...
Mili : same r... mlm nie pelvis..besok thorax sikit..pas2 tgk embryology..

Hari exam....

Mili: jom ah exam...
Syah: rilex kul brape...
Mili: hahahaa..ak da hafal da red sheets.
Is : Ak pon harap2 cm2...klu x kuar smua pon, kuar 70% ckup r...

kami gerak g exam...smua jwpn red sheets ade kat tgn...hahaha..semangat..masuk dewan lbh kurang kul 9 lbh..kul 10 da stat....

Invigilators ( pemerikse ) da stat nk passing kertas soalan... ak da x sbr nk sheets da hafal smua...

bile dpt.....

..eerr..salah soalan nie...


soalan ape nie wey??? mane ischiorectal fossa?? mane rectus sheath???

WTH!! derivatives of ectoderm??? ape nie wey??? arghhhhhh.....


ak tgk muke member2 yg hepi( mgkin die x bace sgt red sheets ni), ad yg muka ketat (nie spesies same macam ak, bace red sheets lebih), ade yg muke x de pape..emotionless (err.. x nk bgtau sape) hahhaha..

so..3 jam ak duk pecah kepala dlm dewan...argh....kenape RED SHEETS?? knp ko wat ak cmni?? WHY???!!!!

*korang tau x RED SHEETS to ape?? hahaha..RED SHEETS tu ialah kertas soalan2 yg mungkin akan kluar dlm exam..Senior2 ngan doktor2 ckp kbnyakan soalan amik dlm RED SHEETS...hurmmm...Hebat kn?? argh... 20% je soalan RED SHEETS kluar tahun nie...arghhh...

anyway, aku tawakkal aje kat Allah..kita dah berusaha sedaya-upaya, kita hanya boleh berserah je kat DIA... n Ak doakan semoga rakan2 aku smua berjaya dlam anatomy n other subjects...



first entry..

Salam...ini first post aku..hahaha..